I know exactly what I want, I’m just to scared of going for it. I’m scared of failure. I’m scared of judgement. I’m scared of disappointment
I don’t want you to understand
Every time somebody becomes close to figuring out why and how im such a fuck up, I change and become the person I said I never would be. I can’t help it
"I’m sorry. I really don’t have any excuse you know. I’m just very fucked up. I am like a defective model you don’t know it until you have been around me for a while Some days I just wake up and feeling so fucked that I would do anything to make me feel better. I know when I’m around you guys I look ok and fun to be around. But I’m just faking it. I know everybody does that sometimes. But just not like me. People always say “ everyone has those bad days”. They say it this because they just don’t know what to say. All I want is for them to understand, but they don’t…"
- (via rahma90)
